Oh! Cruel Reality How I Hate Thee...

Greetings my fellow bloggers,

It has been yet another beautiful day in this tropical country where even when the monsoon hits the temperature stays up at thirty five Celsius degrees. Some might say April is bleak as the skies are always Grey and threatening to downpour without a single warning. Well, for us it is the perfect time of the year besides December. Even though sun can really do no harm I hate to admit it somewhat hurt the eyes and the dry breeze takes scents anywhere it wills and it does not help at all when you are trying to suppress the inevitable thirst that cannot be quenched. Imagine mouthwatering different flavors in air when you have foolishly determined not to give in. Ah! and the sounds of beating hearts... You understand what I am talking about, right?

So comparatively April is one of the best and the safest months in year for humans out there and for us too, where we don't get to make a freak show out of ourselves trying to bite someone in public. Obviously people would think we are crazy.. So gullible. They would go to any length to refuse superstition or shall I say, TRUTH?

I can hear the rain pattering on my windows as I am typing, such a beautiful sound.... Due to lack of wind I can only smell the fresh earth and moss mostly and it is enticing in a non edible way.I can only hear the non stop badgering of rain against my roof . Apparently being deprived of scent works for me perfectly well. Most of the time I barricade my self in my library and enter my fantasy world where dragons, mermaids, damsels in distress, Hades, Tom Sawyer and all the other mythical creatures are very real. I tread the alleys in Paris hand in hand with a handsome young man, I fight the most gruesome battles along with brave knights knowing that none of us will see the sun tomorrow and I cower behind a huge boulder while a fierce dragon is trying to spit flames on me the second he senses me moving. I do not wish to enter the bitter reality where an inescapable thirst awaits me. I wish we remained characters in one of my books, so we would get to kill whichever character we choose whenever we please. Oh! cruel reality how I hate thee!!!

I am going to stop writing now to escape to another adventure full of mythical characters, wink wink!!!!

Until we meet again bid thee farewell my fair ones!!!!!

Torture

The thirst, this perverted thirst,making everything around me worthless..... gets me down on my knees... Your heart, oh that cursed thing beats so loud, it chokes me... Oh!sweet death, why not take me and end this misery????

Burning

I always burn, sometimes till death but like a phoenix I rise from my own ashes to burn yet again.After all, it isn't that bad.

Midnight Sun

"My life is an unending, unchanging midnight. It must, by necessity, always be midnight for me. So how is it possible that the sun is rising now, in the middle of my midnight?"

- Stephenie Myers, Midnight Sun

"Life works in mysterious ways. When we think we are drawing our last breathe while our whole life stretches before our own eyes, it sends that kiss of life leaving us clueless.”

- Angel Siribaddana, Angelic Hallucinations (lol)

Ruling Darkness



Kiss my diamond tears and ease my pain
Touch my trembling lips with yours, saint
Whisper in my ear sweet nothings faint
Lost in me take me to the veining moon

Soft moans escaping mine lips, inviting
The heaven and hell lost in ecstasy fighting
Yearn for more when I can give nothing more
Fall with me over the edge my warrior viking

Pain

This emotional isolation is simply unbearable.... No matter how many surrounds me I will always be alone, alone and alone. It is no one's fault but mine. People love my company, my small talks and foremost my weirdness, as they call it but no one cares enough to look beyond that intriguing bizarreness and look into the pangs of misery held within that bleeding heart. Once they are satisfied, they all walk away and none remains to see how much pain I am in when they leave. This repeats so often and you would think I would be immune to pain by now but no, it's the other way around. The pain gets worse each time.

I do not want to be different. I want to be like every one else. I don't want people to cringe away from me. Just like everyone else I love to be loved, love to be told that I am loved.I want to tell someone how much I suffer, how much I wish that they will not leave me. I want someone to take my hand and jump off that cliff without a care not knowing what will happen next.....but no one dares. They just cringe away at the thought. I am just another exhibit for them to enjoy and when the museum closes they will all go away.