Alas!

Another new day, the sound of the clock is deafening. Sun rises and moon vanes, and I remain unstirred. Even the rocky mountains change shape. Yet here I am, unchanged after decades. Great wars have been fought, great loves had come and gone, changing poetry. Lo! I am still the same.

Thunder growls outside as if protesting my right of being. Please understand that I never did wanted to be what I am, it is who I was born as, or what I was as far as my memories carry. This loneliness is excruciating. I call upon you who are like me, come, I want to share this eternity with someone. Come out of your hiding, I beg you.

I have dropped from impossible heights to end this misery. I have tried bleeding to death. I have drowned myself, buried myself. Cursed be this! I remain alive.

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